Thursday, January 17, 2013

Slumber no more

Like many out there, I love to sleep. I turn down the temperature in the house at night to a frosty 19-20 degrees in the winter which makes huddling under the blankets that much more enjoyable. There are actually several studies that suggest people sleep better at night when the ambient temperature is cooler (rather then warmer).

My wife and I used to sleep in on the weekends: 10:00, 11:00, sometimes even until noon. Even knowing that I usually feel like garbage when I sleep in too late, the only time we would get up early was for special events or the morning liturgy. A friend and seasoned parent made a comment to me in Church one Sunday whilst my wife was still pregnant. He advised me to enjoy sleeping peacefully through the night because it will likely be the last after my daughter was born. He wasn't referring to the broken periods of rest when your newborn wakes up hungry (or whatever reason). He went on to explain that after your child is born, it's like something changes in your own body chemistry and that you begin to sleep lighter, almost like slumbering with one eye open. I guffawed him at that, figuring he was just another veteran Dad trying to tease me and get a rise.

I sigh now wishing that was all it was. As it stands now, full peaceful nights of rest are uncommon. It's like an instinct to protect has engaged and I find myself at best lightly slumbering - always with my ear alert and aware for the sounds of my daughter. In the beginning disruptions to my sleep were magnified by the infant monitor we were using as I could then hear every sneeze, cough, yelp, moan and cry of my daughter. Most of the time it was her just yelling or laughing or something weird in her sleep. Nonetheless, it would be enough to cause me to stir. I was ever so happy to finally turn off the monitor at night(she is 18 months now) so I'm no longer awoken by her every toss and turn. Our room is close enough to her room that I can hear at night if she cries. Another funny thing that changed is my inability to sleep in. I never used to be a slave to the morning routine, I woke up when I wanted or needed to.

Again, it is like something changes as I know find myself up bright and early in the morning, regardless of whether it is a weekday or weekend. Even if my daughter affords me the luxury of sleeping in on the weekend (by doing so herself), I still lie awake in bed with the new day. I have no idea what happened, maybe I'm just getting old.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

New Years Eve, how you've fallen

It wasn't long ago that I would get caught up in the revelry and fooforah of the New Years Eve celebration.  Admittedly I didn't really care much for it except for the fact it was an excuse to go to a social event.   To me though, it's another day of the year, so I never understood the kissing and hugging at 12:01am, or wishing me a "Happy New Year," or resolutions to change ones life (why wait until Jan 1 to do that). 

The last two  years though have been spent at home with our daughter sleeping blissfully in her crib while my wife and I watch rather boring NYE presentations on television.  We actually mused as to the reason for the poor singers used on the presentations.  Perhaps they couldn't find anything else for the evening.

But how things have changed --- no more social events, parties or gatherings.   It's off to bed at 12:05am knowing that our daughter will be up bright and early the next day (she was gracious this year and let us sleep in til 9:00am if you can believe it).   If you had cut out the silly shows on television this year, someone looking in on us through a window would never know this night was any different then the others.  Perhaps the burnout of the holiday is partially to blame (see Grinch post) or the bust of the Mayan prophecy (what sillyness), or just too busy - It's all rather farsical to me. Why make a big deal out of December 31?  It's just another day of the year, nothing is different, it's still cold outside (if you live far enough north), you still get up the next day, albeit hopefully to a day off work.  

I wonder, do I make an attempt to hide my cynical attitude of NYE when my daughter is old enough to be curious?   I'm not an old fuddy duddy, we will have fun with the Tooth fairy, Santa Clause and the Easter bunny for a few years, but even then, children eventually grow up to understand what they truly are.  Do I decide to wait until my child is an adult before she figures out what NYE really is? *shrugs*  Who knows :)